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Nurudin Mudhir
4 min readJan 12, 2021

How I handle fear and how it has helped me grow every single day!

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I never really understood how crippling or limiting fear can be. When you have overcome something you actually forget what it was like going through it, or dealing with it.

Thats why I want to quickly speak about fear and how iI was forced into handling fear to move forward in life.

Growing up in my environment, whenever you fear to do something it meant you were p***y. If you were scared to bunk lesson — you’re a p***y. If you’re scared to speak to the girl you like — you’re a p***y. You’re scared to look stupid, guess what you my friend are p***y.

At the time I don’t know how I made it out of that environment because it lead me down some dangerous paths — but now I am not only thankful but also understanding for having gone through everything. And it only made sense like 10+ years later.

I don’t want to bore you, so I’ll give you a simple example.

The first

peaking in front of a group of people — or being the centre of attention used to scare the shit out of me. No seriously, I would start to sweat like crazy, shortness of breath, as you could just look at me and know something was wrong. And whenever I finished speaking I felt like I had just run a marathon. This started in primary(elementary) school to college(university), such a long time to suffer I know but it slightly improved over time.

However, the moment I had an ‘Aha” moment was when I was reading 50 cent’s & Robert Greene’s book called “The 50th Law”, I can’t remember the specific passage word by word but it was based on the fear of being wrong. The talked about a good example wherein a class when a teacher asks a question they always struggle to get someone to answer first because no one wants to get it wrong and look stupid. However, what they explained is that the person that normally puts themselves out there first is most likely to be successful because they are not bound to fear of the average man. THIS HIT ME IN MY CHEST, HEART, HEAD, LEGS, THIGH — basically everywhere. It’s like they were speaking directly to me. I had this fear, I would shy away from answering or putting my self in a place of pressure every, single, day. I was setting myself up for failure.
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